Thoughtful Thursday #11

Thanks to my fathers side, I've always thought it's better to be good. Of course I'm not perfect... No one is! But our decisions on what kind of person we'll be will always show in our actions, not just words. 

I've not exactly had the best upbringing but that's not an excuse to be mean, violent and hurtful towards other people. I get sick of people saying really pathetic excuses for their actions. 

It's our decision to be a certain way.

I've got some pretty great role models in my Nana and one of my Aunts. They're the voices in my head to carry on how I am personally. 

And I know the way they brought me up will always stay with me and I have no doubt that they will always inspire me and influence me when P & I start a family.

L x

Picture found on Facebook. No idea where originally from.

Thoughtful Thursday #12

You are always responsible for how you act, no matter how you feel.

This matters quite abit to me.

Over the years, this is sort of how I've become...

No matter how hurt I feel by a family member, I remember more important factors and that I don't need to act out. Why would there be any need?

Even if I'm in one of them blah moods and we have the nephews over, I will paste on a smile and find an activity for us all to enjoy.

I had a massive argument with my Mum last October... Been a long time coming to be honest... This argument caused me to lose the whole side of that family and that hurts. 

I wasn't given a chance by any of the others because of the slagging off I was given. Thanks to all of this, I cherish my new family. 

Lots of different personalities, and I feel right in. 

I savour the friends that have stayed my friend even though I moved 150 miles away.

In a way, I am glad that I started the argument. Things needed to be said. 

And even though there were consequences for my actions, they didnt have to choose sides.

L x

THE Dress!

As I'm sure you can guess from the title... I have found THE dress. The dress that I saw myself walking down the aisle in. 

I've wanted a dress like this since P & I started talking ideas about the wedding. Never been able to find a style like this in the times I've been searching. 

When I saw it, it was like time stopped and I knew. That deep down feeling that I know it's the dress. 

When I also saw that I was going to save £346, my thrifty side also got a bit giddy! 

Yay! This is exciting!!

I can't explain what it's like as I know P reads this blog and it's a surprise for the groom.

I do know that in the next 10 months or so I'm going to try toning up my arms and keep on trying to focus on getting my hypothyroidism sorted so my body can go back to how it once was.

But now I'm going to get the dress soon, it's a kick up the bum :)

L x

Honesty is the best policy... Right?!?!

I can't shake off the way I'm feeling...

So lonely and I hate that! Disconnected from everyone and everything. Faking so many smiles, so people don't ask me.

This no job malarkey is no fun, lemme tell ya!

Always trying to find something to do when limited is quite hard. Every single day. 

People moan to me about work and assume things that they shouldn't, and it's all starting to get to me. 

I've gotten more geeky when it comes to organisation just so it fills some time... I'm even contemplating doing one of them cleaning challenges just so it gives me something to do!

Has anyone ever done one of them?

I'm also getting sick of people telling me to get pregnant. Yes, I'd love to start a family, and yes, my day wouldn't feel so empty, but I'm not forcing this on P. It's not the right time, and we're not even stable enough to even think of it. 

Bleurgh. I know that's not an actual word but it certainly describes how I'm feeling.

I feel like my mood is rubbing off on P and it makes me feel so sad! :( I don't want him to get all down and negative about his life because of so much pressure.

I'm sorry for this rant. 

L x

Thoughtful Thursday #10

Oh how I wish this!

Like when me & P dance in the kitchen to a song on the radio and he has such a lovely look on his face ...

When T-J did a rain dance to make it stop raining...

When J has a massive grin on his face that makes his eyes sparkle, and believe me, that doesn't happen that often...

When J-L and T-J cuddled on the sofa...

The way P looks at me with such love in his eyes...

When the boys giggle as I twirl them around...

The massive grin P has on his face when he sees me as soon as he gets in...

There's so many moments I wish I could capture!

L x



Image taken from Pinterest.

2 Haunted Venues: Hinckley Museum - Charity Night 1.

The Hinckley Museum is trying to raise money so Marc & Neil from 2 Haunted Venues were generous to host a whole weekend of investigations and all the money from the tickets would go to the Museum.

This event started at 7.30pm instead of the usual 9pm. I had no idea until we got there, that it included a guided ghost tour of Hinckley.

Was so excited! ... Until the guy started talking. Just wanted to get on with the night. I blame having too much energy. No idea why! Been having having problems with sleep lately.

Anyway! Back to topic.

After the tour, we headed back to the museum for a tea break.

Marc did his usual talk. Being regulars now, we've heard it enough to know it off by heart.

In the first main exhibition room, we split up onto 4 tables.

3 of the tables didn't get any contact. But the table that had a glass in the centre was fantastic!

The rest of us were moved to other rooms and still didn't get any contact.

All of us went to the break room to be separated into two groups.

Thanks to the dizziness I've been having lately, I knew I wouldn't be able to go upstairs or into the cellar either.

While the two groups were doing their thing, I experienced tarot cards for the first time. So shocked at how true they were.

From what Phil told me, he felt so connected in the red room. Now, now.
Stop thinking of Christian Grey & 50 Shades.
A red room is where it's more negative. A place to push.
The red room in the Museum is said to have a door/portal.
Both Phil & Marc felt someone on the other side and were frustrated at how they wouldn't come forward.

Meanwhile, in the cellar, there was communication with Edward. Remember him from a previous post? He was the one they found out the name of. The one who hid keys in maps?
There was a new toy tonight where the spirit could use everyone's energies like on a Ouija board, but they'd be able to draw instead.
Not sure what they asked but he pointed it in the direction of Tamworth Castle and it's believed he was held there.
Myself and one of the volunteers were watching the camera in the cellar and watched the temperature go from 59 degrees to around 26. This was quite shocking because of the amount of bodies in the cellar.
After about half an hour or so of each place, another tea break was taken.

Finally, for the last attempt, we went to the room above the main exhibition room. At first we were all in a big circle, holding hands, trying to get something to come forward. We were then split up again onto several tables. Phil, myself and two other guests were put onto one of the two Ouija boards. Phil stepped away because of how tired he was, bless him. I'd had two cups of PG Tips by then and had some caffeine in my system, while he's not a fan of hot drinks.
The energy around the table wasn't exactly as buzzing as I've felt it before with other people. 
It was quite weak but we had a bit of a joker playing with us.

Marc cut us off shortly after it started picking up, which was disappointing, but I don't blame him! It's a long weekend for him!

To be honest, it's a shame we didn't go for the second night instead. I think there's a few people we've seen before going to that one.

Not entirely sure, but I think it's just under 3 months until I next go to another event. I know Phil's going to one at the end of the month to a rearranged event.

Seems like such a long time to wait!

L x